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2004-06-27 ~ 5:33 a.m.

sweet iced tea is really good stuff.

hester rocks the house again.

can't sleep for shit tonight.

ah, foetus! i know! my fence does get to die so much.

i find it symbolic, actually. each and every time.

tearing down old boundaries and replacing them with new ones only to be reminded of nature's inescapable path and then only to be run over.

but i'll be...the fence is back up, patched up, and keeping out the wild ones and (most importantly) keeping in the even wilder ones. *scruffs a puppy head*

should we ever learn to be more careful about how we ask for the things we want, i think i should be astounded to realize just exactly how i have gotten what i asked for in certain situations.

it feels good to know that i keep learning. it is albeit, only slightly, a justification toward being a better person...that depth of character thing.

i approch the week of my birthdate...and in the words of mother...

"so, you are celebrating your 10 birthday for the nineteenth time?"

nah, more like 21 for the eighth time i guess.

haha.

my, oh my, what a life we live.

and it is with composure and quiet resolve that i can honestly say i am not at all ready for whatever happens next, yet i am.

and i will admit my fears as well.

in the meantime...

watch out for yourselves out there...it is a sick, sad world on lots of corners.

but in some places, like right here and right now, there is a kind of beauty and reverence that makes me await the lighting of the ceremonial candles.

goodnight moon, who is slowly getting bigger.

here's to us all.

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