admit the problem and get help
2004-11-16 ~ 4:46 a.m.

have to go in @ 9am.

not that far away.

been working all night.

had several things worthy of mentioning today...

let's see...

first part of the day was spent getting a few hours of sleep. then i did stuff...ran errands or something.

this evening i got several calls...and we will make tentative plans for wednesday if that is wanted.

was good to talk to my little friend. was good to talk to emer too. and the boys.

was good to talk to kathy, bummer it was abbreviated with drama.

did i mention i have to go in at 9am?

then things took a turn for the strange...

and what i really wanted to say...when the phone rang at 12:30 was ...."how much blood is there?" then i looked at caller id and thought ..."wtf?"

so i answered the phone. and that was a strange and perhaps drunk conversation. so weird. though i had left a message about the monkey, etc. ... but after midnight? but even still... and while i wanted to tell this person that i planned to do them bodily harm by hitting them in the face with a brick (actually...i did say that, i think)...or perhaps talk about how this person lost their balls right before the big game. so many things i could say and want to say...because i get vengeful when there is sadness. but i was cool, level...suggested counseling. suggested some for real therapy. suggested that everyone get a therapist so they have someone to tell all their overwhelming and intrusive thoughts to.

and that would have been a wrap...

but then i was editing my new project...way out in another window. fingers flying with ctrl-c and ctrl-v and alt-tab. drinking milk and eating pop-tarts.

then from the fog of reality came the all familiar 'voice' announcing new messages.

so i switched over, prepared to delete post-midnight porn spam...and i got a shocker.

and i have no idea what that was all about.

strange.

so i burned a little sage and hoped for a little peace.

then i had to catch up on few days worth of correspondance and go to bed.

obviously, that last part was not as easy to do as writing the letters.

when you have to be up in 3 hours, why bother?

later.

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