i mowed the yard
2005-05-13 ~ 2:29 a.m.

first, about the editor's thing... they are not mine. no. they are final judges and correctors. but i feel a little better about doing it for that.

now... i did skip the other interview and mow the yard. and i continued to stay fairly busy.

then we were lied to - decieved and manipulated by the television. hester knows.

then a visit and retrieval mission.

and now, bedtime.

so many thoughts and no keystrokes. exactly like a carousel.

i repeat prayers in the night like secret mantras to ward off the very darkness night inherently brings...

i am overwhelmed. i feel okay. mostly okay. wondering how all my testing will go. impatient again. damn. can't help but be nervous. can't help but be damn apprehensive about everything.

my head keeps threatening to explode even though i am not dizzy. i am perfectly still.

i am frail weariness and ever leary ...

not to interrupt myself...but i was just thinking about the phrase "mind made up"... that's an odd phrase. lot like dates to me. but i get it. so funny.

and i have an imagination of sorts, i know that.

i am ... definitely writing all these other things down.

i wonder if these are big risks? i was thinking about bungee jumping. yet i do not take risks. *grin*

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