just another day
2002-08-11 ~ 5:03 p.m.

what side of the bed did i wake up on?

bah...i didn't even wake up in bed, so that disqualifies the whole thing, right?

that damn song is stuck in my head again...

i really want to rant...and scream and throw some shit...and crawl up somewhere and give it all up.

just give it all away...give everything...until there is nothing left but the slippery little ledge i have been hanging on to...and then even that goes.

a strange sort of heaviness settled over me last night. it carried over to fitful sleep...and left me here.

and i am too tired to care anymore...part of me just wants to let it all fall, and fuck it as it gets caught on the wind and blows in to someone else's mind.

there was a time when i wondered what it was that i had done in my previous life to get this hand dealt to me. then there was a time that i figured i must have a purpose, because why have to go through this without a purpose...right?

but the indigo girls aren't singing gallileo and i have forciblly shoved the magical thinking...

today is going to be a really long day...and distractions, well...yeah.

i said i would send postcards...right.

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