honorable, me?
2002-08-09 ~ 4:49 a.m.

forgetfullness is a sign of sanity?

i have always wondered whether the truly insane were insane because they remembered everything. perhaps the inverse is true?

cause i sure enough forgot!

she took me to fort worth...

i had kind of forgotten how scared i get driving/ being in a car in this city at night. i can't stop the images of her and then him...and then shudder, switch...and i have done something wrong...

funny, the mind.

but i got to meet steve. i remember him from all the pictures. and though i would like a different audience, i enjoyed the music. i need to listen to it for a while though...and find out who writes the songs. regardless of the music though, i met steve.

i have a few impressions, but it was rather fleeting. i would like to hope that perhaps a day trip to see him would be forthcoming soon. i did a daring thing in laying it all out. i live in a rather veiled world and i like it that way...but i know you are curious about me in some regards, and if he could gather some insight that might help...right on. i have nothing to hide from you. it is a new concept...but i am digging it.

don't get me wrong...i still question things and second guess everything...

i just don't want to hide anything anymore. it hasn't gotten me anywhere i want to be my entire life. and you make it easier.

besides...with you, my heart is wide open and my intentions are very honorable. though the low expectations and the honorable intentions sometimes feud.

i want to be a better person...i want to come through this and out to the other side and i want to breathe real air again.

i digress...

i was supposed to go reboot....ooooooops

okay, i shall do that. hold your breath.

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