god help me, i am in pieces. shattered and scattered like crumbled leaves caught in the wind.

tonight/today my hurt goes deep in to places it has never been before. my jaw is slack with the knowledge of what i have done. what i vowed to never do.

this afternoon you asked or stated that this wasn't good for me...or something such as that. tonight we wrestled in sheets and i gave things to you. and now, in the hazy smoke filled dim, i am alone and i am afraid.

there is nothing quite so scary as the soft steady beating of my heart in the hands of another, at a distance.

it is like alice through the looking glass or something now. the little blue pill is working. yes, i took it.

one more time before i change my life forever.

expect "detour" and "under construction" signs around the next corner. adjust your speed to 45 mph and remember that traffic fines double when workers are present.

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