it's not all in my head
2002-10-11 ~ 4:33 a.m.

i have a lot of time on my hands and not a single damn thing i want to say.

i needed to be in bed hours ago and i have a lot on my mind.

i did something hastily today, without thought. how uncharacteristic of me. i wonder if, and how long, i will regret it. already, the gears are spinning faster...and the fates draw nearer to the figure that is me.

i did all kinds of unexpected things today. at least in my mind.

you know...if i didn't hate myself so much, i might actually be pleased.

ahhh...but look there. yes, right over there. do you see them too?

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