bad wreck....
2002-10-31 ~ 10:57 p.m.

there was a bad wreck on 35...

mother fuck...bah...

so, i went to the black eyed pea to meet a hester and an andy. he is just a cutie!! i approve, he even has table manners.

and we are there, eating...when this blonde boy walks in with gi joe and sits down a few tables from us. i recognize him instantly...and hit hester across the table...

now we are both in shock...it was randy!! from high school. and he a flaming gay man! wow.

the gay man and the lesbian...we rock.

in other news...

i am tired of this. i am tired of being avoided. if you want me out of your life, then just say the word and watch me vanish. but don't just leave me fucking dangling for weeks on end.

it all just makes me feel so fucking used. and i am tired of it. i can handle anything...whatever it is you have to say or not say...just stop pushing me so far to the back. i thought i mattered...and even if it isn't about me...it isn't about respecting me as a person with any place in your life either.

so anyways...woohoo, therapy tomorrow followed by happy hour. that makes it all worth it. and comrade says i might not have to drive, which would be lovely. regardless, someone will be sober before the night is up. right?

the girls are in denton having a gay old time at the house of a mouse...and i am suddenly pissy with all that is this day.

i am glad i made the choice to meet hester and andy...hester is as good as they come, and andy is a sweet pea. besides, seeing randy was an event unto itself. i hope he calls, would be nice to catch up.

i also met a very nice man at the bar waiting for an artist friend. he is from new york, and got his first taste of a shiner tonight...good stuff.

i had saved a little weed for tonight, for whatever dumbass reason, and so i am going to smoke it now and watch ER...

i will be back when i am happier and higher and have called a comrade and maybe had a scotch.

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