samhein
2002-11-01 ~ 12:30 a.m.

tonight...i burned some of my journals. so i had the first fire of the year...complete with lighter fluid. (they had letters in them...)

and honestly, if i did not feel 'obligated'...i would not be going tomorrow, i would be reschedulling to a more convenient time for me.

i would still be at the bar.

tonight i am sick.

with anger and a deep cough.

my shoulders are tight, and there is no release to be found...

not until the fucking air is clean and i can move on the way i am so obviously supposed to.

i ache all over...i felt better earlier. it figures.

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