i am tired...
2003-01-19 ~ 9:00 p.m.

things look better around here...

well, not really. the house is a wreck, i am a mess...but better.

the equation of existence is really put to the test when insanity is coupled with pms. why on earth?

my arm is better. not quite so red and jagged looking. all around, better.

there were several humorous highlights to my day...

all of which involved the phone ringing...or not ringing.

today we had random women who are calling and asking for (k)carla...and i am asking which one...which confuses them...which confuses me. which leads to me calling little karla and asking her to call me...at which point my phone rang seven times in the course of an hour.

and none of them were little karla.

they were all nice voices to hear though...indeed.

i am exhausted...drained.

some days i just want to fade away...

ahhh...she just called. and i am thinking new records have been set...thrice in one day. and she is on the pain wave and i am so fucking jealous....*smile* she got her ears guaged....and now the comforting throb of loving pain will accompany her for a while.

*lamentations and sweet prose*

i smile at the thought of candles burning and conversation.

as for the rest of the night...

i thought of things that i could do...and tonight, those thoughts will have to be enough. because i can't find the strength of will and desire to do anything but curl up in bed and sleep until next week.

this time, i have given...and i am tired.

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