there was a point?
2003-04-28 ~ 4:07 a.m.

no.

i will absolutely, with rigid determination, destroy every single brain cell i have if this doesn't stop...

medicate or self destruct? decisions.

let me survey my world...

dogs are sleeping...

girl is sleeping...went to the bar, sorted out the nekkid pictures mess which she created in the first place by getting shitty and using her cell phone.

admittedly, comrade dared her.

this was at the exact same moment that emer and i looked at one another and both acknowledged how surreal it all felt.

the hereness and the thereness and the crossraods betwixt the two.

yes bessie...long lost panty phantom...everyone was shitty. but i remember talking to you.

i have a lot in my head.

............................

fuck.

i can't make you see.

i can't tell you how it makes me feel.

i can't open my mouth.

because i am afraid of what will come shooting out in the seconds before i slip in to the drivers seat.

because right now...

i just need to be away.

nothing is working right and i am overloaded.

i just need to regroup.

and get everyone back in line.

this will take time and coaxing and possibly bribery...and i am working on it.

ahhh....no more.

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