ain't no sunshine
2003-12-23 ~ 1:02 a.m.

a lot can change in the course of a few hours. i know this, and the knowing never makes it easier.

i am so sorry.

and i know how meaningless those words are when faced with overwhelming loss. and how that is all you can ever say.

though i know how much i truly mean it.

i suppose i am still in shock. still not grasping what was in those hurried tearful words.

my pirate.

you are not alone.

i lit my candles. one for ground and one for spirit.

one to release and one to guide.

so many times i have lit these candles.

the flames are dim and bright, respectively. as it should be tonight.

the prayers are filling the air waves, pouring out of those few souls i know and trust in these matters.

for you, my pirate. your sweet mother and your sensitive father. for farmer and becky. for everyone whose life she brought joy to.

i was blessed to know her.

i can't. just can't tell you how much i hurt for you. how much i wanted to reach through the phone.

and i will find a way. just say the word.

all my love*

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