talking to myself
2004-01-07 ~ 11:40 p.m.
i called it a crisis of faith for lack of any better words... but it just another crisis in self. same shit, different day. anniversaries... of death and life and death... and i have to wonder why, some days...most days... anyone would want to leave the house. i tend to conclude that they are stronger than me most days. or more stupid. or reckless. or maybe they just don't fucking feel haunted or chased all the time. i don't pretend to know that. that lack of knowledge chews me up inside. because i can't identify it. i need to identify everything...every little thing. playing pictures over and over in my mind in carla's own little theater. always looking... again, self... again i ask you. what the fuck are you waiting for?
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