conversations that never happened
2005-06-09 ~ 12:21 a.m.

i've got a lot on my mind. there is no outlet.

seems jilly learned to head butt... i think it's a great idea personally.

today was just a training nightmare. i just... *now i just keep thinking about head butting while growling* ... heh, kids are cute...even when you could get a black eye i guess.

so... yeah, training. god help me. that was a sincere plea, with just a dash of sarcasm.

i don't know what i should do here really...and it is hard to consider multiple options with so many possible outcomes. some problems just don't seem to go away no matter what i do.

today i was getting nothing and i want something.

my mind keeps wandering away to big picture things and i think perhaps it is past time to go to bed.

why is it that i am sad and restless on a night when i should be satisfied for having my 'potential' recognized? of course, that never happened.

one more smoke, why not?

then sleep. or reading. or standing in my closet. or cleaning the counter...just one more time.

good night.
)(*

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