silly drunk grin
2002-10-20 ~ 2:44 a.m.

yeah, so i already said stuff here...but i am not done. i got distracted by fred, then the bathroom...and then my bed. it looks kind of yummy. like a big marshmallow.

i really appreciate my intelligence thus far in avoiding alcohol...thwap!

things are blurry and shimmery...

see the silly drunk grin? yeah.

see me giving amy-bubblehead one of my priceless looks when she asked if i was doing okay with everything...she shut up and let me shoot pool.

yeah.

and you know...i appreciate the new phone numbers. i will never call them, but they helped a little. especially since i beat out margaret for the personal trainer, or so she says. i say what the fuck just happened?

i actually could use a good personal trainer though. should have thought of that.

well...i took three midol, two motrin and a xanax...again. so let's see if this cocktail sits still.

seems that kathy there told karen she was out with some "serious lesbians"...someone explain this to me?

i think it is an admission of my butchness, much to karen's chagrin.

then there was the..."you are beautiful, but why so quiet?" "that ring thing there...that is cool" and of course the "serious lesbian" comment, in addition to the "did you used to date someone named ashley?"

interesting...really.

bullshit...mostly.

yet...there was peace in the night, depite the howling. it was a nice moon. the weather is getting right. things should be getting more interesting soon. i feel it coming, and i welcome the change. i yearn for it. the need to grow beyond this is overwhelming and manageable.

blah...blah...blah...fuck it. i am taking my drunk ass grinning self to bed to dream of naughty and improper things.

after i do a few things and feed everyone. talon left a nice set of scratch marks a few minutes ago...though it beats the sitting awake and yowling in the hall all night thing.

she actually came out to see terri and sit in the open windows for a while. all in our own time, i suppose the same is true of cats. we are a lot alike, she and i. and because i will never say it any other time...we handled this whole thing well, considering.

i have a new book i have been thinking of reading all night...started it last week. *sigh* mmmmm....white cover, red letters...and a bit of happy escape.

night again

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