much love....
2002-12-05 ~ 4:28 a.m.

see?

i replied to the emails and now i am crying.

why do i feel so sappy?

you could tap me and get molasses right about now.

it isn't that i am a stranger to kindness and sweet words...it is just that i am the one who usually sends them...and i find myself at a loss of words now.

with all forms of communication there is a transference of energy...even email...and i feel so much right now.

and i don't have the words...i just don't.

*looking around for the missing words*

i am surrounded internally by silence, with my speakers putting out a smooth little mix of sarah and carole king...

i can't honestly remember the last time i felt this way.

i was reading a friend's diary...i call her a friend though we have not met, but because we seem to share so much...

and i am going to send her some of this overwhelming abundance i have recieved these past few days...

because rachel, we are not broken. i am standing proof of that, and so are you. so are we all.

i wish i could explain the why's and how's of the roller coaster life puts us on sometimes...but even though i can't...

moments like this make so much of my own life worth it to me.

and so, with my heart and eyes overflowing...

i am taking my leave, yet again.

how on earth did i suddenly get so blessed?

much love to each of you*

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